Matias is continuing with his conversations with bebe – and last night we did a little “test”.
He was just talking to him, through my belly button-area, and there was no response but he had just been awake a minute earlier so I told Matias to “tap to him” and see what happens. He responded RIGHT AWAY in the exact spot Matias tapped!!
He was also singing songs to him and when he responded he would make a specific noise to let the bebe know he had “heard” him. It was too cute.
After a while though the pressure of Matias lying on me and my organs gets a little much & I have to ask him to say goodbye so I can get some relief. I always feel bad doing that but it a little uncomfortable. So he says good night and kisses my belly.
Matias asked me the other night how it feels to be pregnant with a growing belly – sometimes my belly ‘hurts’ like the skin is stretching more and just aches around my ribs so he rubs my belly cream on me and that helps soothe it. When I responded that it didn’t really feel any different – to actually have the belly – he was surprised but not as much as I was! Sure, it’s different but it doesn’t feel “alien” & that’s something I wasn’t expecting. When I feel the bebe wake up I always say hello or good morning and then I talk to him throughout the day (but quietly so as not to seem too crazy) – I don’t feel like he is a separate entity in my body, taking over and changing Me – I feel like he’s a part of me/us that just happens to be inside of me. If anyone has ever had a conversation with me about pregnant women you know I’m not that thrilled about it all & I’m not saying I’m one of those people who suddenly is all like “oh wait until it happens to you…”, I didn’t expect this feeling & feel quite “blessed” (for lack of a better non-catholic word) to be sharing this time and giving our bebe a Home. I still really don’t think pregnant bellies are beautiful but I don’t feel like I’m looking at a stranger when I catch a glimpse of myself either. And perhaps this feeling will diminish when I get to a larger stage…but at the moment it hasn’t & I don’t mind at all. I also think that since Spring has Sprung I’m feeling more “loose” – mostly in my clothing! No big jacket to lug around and encapsulate my growing belly, no heavy shoes & socks – just wearing ONE layer of clothes is such a nice feeling. Don’t think you’ll be getting me into a bathing suit anytime soon though!! And I am truly NOT looking forward to the day when my belly button Pops. I hate belly buttons, period. And this Popping thing – I still think that’s gross. I had to check last night though as my draw string on my pants (thanks for the black yoga pants, mom!) was in a conspicuous position – thankfully – not the Button!! I do feel comfort in the bebe’s movements too – I LIKE feeling him move and tumble around in there. And I also, GASP, RUB MY BELLY. Not in public, mind you, unless some asshat pushes me on the metro than I just comfort him to let him know we are ok. Not to sound like an idiot but it’s like petting your cat when they sit in your lap – they are there, they want love, so give it them! Don’t worry, I’m not comparing my bebe to our cats – although…if we could have a bebe as sweet and loving as Monkey & as fierce and strong willed as Mystic, I don’t think you’d have any complaints from the Ninos. Maybe just more controllable fur, I mean hair.
I looked up at our sonogram picture last night and I turned to Matias and said “that’s OUR bebe in that frame there – not someone else’s, isn’t it amazing?” and he just squished my face and called me a weirdo.
Which was a lot nicer than being called
In other belly news – I am running into things Belly First now. It’s almost as if I don’t know it’s there. Cube walls at work get rammed if I turn around too quickly, drawers get shut by it when I’m cleaning the kitchen, and corners get hit when I’m doing the laundry. And yes, my center of gravity is off. If I stand up too quickly I can tilt a little before righting myself – which is comical to my co-workers cause they just love watching me so animatedly go through this. One would think one would realize that this belly is going to go first but you just kind of forget that it’s there. Getting off the couch can be difficult, depending on how long I’ve been there & Matias hoisted me up with a nice shove of his legs last night and nearly sent me over the ottoman cause the whole center of gravity thing kicked in too.
Let me explain a little about the Mommy Stupids – they aren’t of the ‘forgetting’ simple things variety. I seem to experiencing the type that regress my base of knowledge to that of a teenager. Things we know usually, I have to question and sadly sometimes I do ask out loud and regret it instantly because of the looks I receive from Matias over it! It’s like I’ve forgotten that the Sun is this orb that heats us…strange. High learning intense TV shows (like NOVA) are a little much for me to handle at the moment so I just nap through them praying osmosis kicks in. Thankfully, Matias is grateful that I’m sending all my brain power to our child. But it would be nice if I could have some left over for myself.
See, I was going to write about something else but Matias just asked me to shut a window and I took Mystic to him to warm him up in bed and I’ve completely forgotten. It could have been really important too. But I’m sure it wasn’t!
For example, I cannot remember if I wrote about my dream last weekend – I was waiting to write about it until I had told Matias & my mom about it but now I have to go back and see if I actually did mention it already. Alrighty, I haven’t written about it – so I’ll make that a separate post now!
