Week 14

I'm cruising through my week much better! Thankfully! The mind still leaves temporarily but The Sickness has abated. YAY!

The buffalo chicken tenders werent such a big hit though - mucho heartburn. So there's another yummy thing off my list. It's ok though - no complaints here. I'd rather discover something doesnt sit too well with me through heartburn than spending time with the toilet bowl!

I also had a bout of Not Being Able to Sleep the Entire Night at the start of the week but THANK BUDDHA that has gone away also. For about 3 nights I would fall asleep at a good time only to wake up around 2 and not fall back asleep for more than an hour at a time - I know this because I would look at the clock and only an hour had passed. One night I actually didnt even fall asleep util 4am. And then got up for work at 6:30. FUN!

I've discovered a new love for bagels and cream cheese - delicious breakfast and keeps me nice and full with no heartburn or anything!! YAY!! Always nice. I do have to start buying them at the store though and bringing in my own stash of cream cheese cause I just cant keep spending $1.50 every day at the work caf.

This weekend has also been very productive as I have been able to run more than one errand without having to throw in the towel. This is good for us since we dont get out much after work hours during the week. Today we have two more errands to run outside of the house & our To Do Lists will be completed. I cannot say that this has been happening with much regularity in the past month or so but thankfully my energy levels have been returning and I'm able to be much more productive around the house.

Now with that being said, Matias *needs to realize* that I am still not functioning at 100% as I am Under Construction. Yes, I can do things but not EVERYTHING I used to do at the same rate as I used to. Example: cleaning the kitchen is "My Job" but sometimes My Job doesnt get done 100% because I just cannot muster up the energy to do it all & he DOES need to step up and HELP. I'm attempting to find a gentle way of explaining that he needs to help more even at this "early" stage and realize that things will not be functioning at the same level EVER AGAIN. But I have to be careful because usually the rational response doesnt come out of my mouth and that just leads to larger problems :) So, I refrain and try to rationally explain what's going on and try not to flip my ever-loving lid. It's easier said than done, though. LOL.

I have definintely "popped". People are really noticing at work. And I've just decided that even though I'm still in that "tween" stage of being thought of as "fat" or "pregnant?" that I'm going not to attempt and "hide" my belly as I have been in the past weeks. IT'S NOT FAT. And that's a difficult thing to get past when you've "struggled" with ANY weight issues. It's still difficult to wrap your head around the fact that it is OK to be gaining weight (when have you EVER been ok with that statement?!?!) and to be showing a Belly. It's a BEBE BELLY not a fricking Beer Gut. And, honestly, I'm ok with showing - it's not freaking ME out, I just still find myself looking down and realizing that I'm growing a baby and not a Firestone :) I'm still getting over people's line of vision going DIRECTLY to my belly when they see me though - you dont stare at a women's midsection, people. BUT I AM pregnant...ugh, issues. Maybe, I'll just start calling him Our Little Firestone.

Please see above section again if you wonder what I mean exactly when I say "my mind has left...".