I just received my Americanbaby.com Ages & Stages newsletter for Week 19 (which starts today for those playing along at home) AND the bebe is the size of a MAGIC 8 BALL!!
CRAZY.
And let me tell you, this little frog is swimming around like crazy today - he must be looking for a better answer to his question ;)
"Most Likely" my belly says.
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Very interesting.
So, I brought some tea into work, since I had polished off the stash we had here, and probably for the first time in a week I made myself some hot tea. When I make it for myself at work, I dont use milk or sugar simply because I dont have any here :)
Turns out, I'm pretty sure the Straight Tea is giving me heartburn. BUT when I make it at home with milk & sugar, there's no side effects at all. I wonder what the difference is?
Yesterday I didnt have any tea but did have my yogurt & bagel with cream cheese...and no heartburn. Today, Straight Tea with my yogurt & bagel with cream cheese...Heartburn.
Que??
Turns out, I'm pretty sure the Straight Tea is giving me heartburn. BUT when I make it at home with milk & sugar, there's no side effects at all. I wonder what the difference is?
Yesterday I didnt have any tea but did have my yogurt & bagel with cream cheese...and no heartburn. Today, Straight Tea with my yogurt & bagel with cream cheese...Heartburn.
Que??
GAH!!
I just discovered that the birthstone for July is RUBY. It's RED, people. I might have to hold this bebe in a few days ;)
Monday, February 27, 2006
Starting with some purchases...
...although not *entirely* for the bebe they do greatly & directly benefit the bebe :)
First purchase was easy - I found that Boppy makes a Cuddle Pillow to use when sleeping. It helps keep you on your side (and supposedly when you put it between your knees it doesnt even unlodge when you flip) and helps support your growing belly and prevents unnecessary Sloshing. ROCK. ON. I feel rather giddy that I got it for 10% off and with free shipping also.
Second purchase wasnt as smooth or un-annoying as my lovely Cuddle Pillow. We wanted to get the prenatal sound system that allows you to put the special headphones on your belly and let the bebe listen to music. Sounds simple, right? Well the two most highly recommended brands have either been disontinued or is out of stock for the unforeseeable future. And the rest of the "prenatal sound systems" that we searched for were only US listening to the Bebe and not the bebe listening to what we want him to...take a wild guess what that might include...
Finally, I found an auction on Ebay with no bids and a little less than two days left. And of course, way under price. Other auctions were not for the ones we were looking at and at full list price and all the Buy it Now options were all over-priced...
So keep your fingers crossed that I win this auction tomorrow :) Matias is already busy downloading webstreams of World Music & we've got to decide which song/s to use for our "sleep time", "calming time"...music!! YAY!! How exciting!! Corruption is starting already!!! Kidding, just kidding. just maybe.
And since it's one of those combo deals, we can also HEAR the hearbeat (if the thing gets good 'reception') and record our own voices (mostly daddy's do this since baby can already 'hear' mommy's voice...) AND I think it lets you email your recordings...SO y'all might be hearing the heartbeat & kicks if it's the one I'm thinking it is. (and who knows, we looked at so many today they all start to look the same after a while!)
First purchase was easy - I found that Boppy makes a Cuddle Pillow to use when sleeping. It helps keep you on your side (and supposedly when you put it between your knees it doesnt even unlodge when you flip) and helps support your growing belly and prevents unnecessary Sloshing. ROCK. ON. I feel rather giddy that I got it for 10% off and with free shipping also.
Second purchase wasnt as smooth or un-annoying as my lovely Cuddle Pillow. We wanted to get the prenatal sound system that allows you to put the special headphones on your belly and let the bebe listen to music. Sounds simple, right? Well the two most highly recommended brands have either been disontinued or is out of stock for the unforeseeable future. And the rest of the "prenatal sound systems" that we searched for were only US listening to the Bebe and not the bebe listening to what we want him to...take a wild guess what that might include...
Finally, I found an auction on Ebay with no bids and a little less than two days left. And of course, way under price. Other auctions were not for the ones we were looking at and at full list price and all the Buy it Now options were all over-priced...
So keep your fingers crossed that I win this auction tomorrow :) Matias is already busy downloading webstreams of World Music & we've got to decide which song/s to use for our "sleep time", "calming time"...music!! YAY!! How exciting!! Corruption is starting already!!! Kidding, just kidding. just maybe.
And since it's one of those combo deals, we can also HEAR the hearbeat (if the thing gets good 'reception') and record our own voices (mostly daddy's do this since baby can already 'hear' mommy's voice...) AND I think it lets you email your recordings...SO y'all might be hearing the heartbeat & kicks if it's the one I'm thinking it is. (and who knows, we looked at so many today they all start to look the same after a while!)
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
How Maternity Clothes are the Opposite of Bridal Gowns
You know that old bullshit of wedding dresses being sized way too small – like a regular size 10 now takes a wedding dress size 12? Although I DO have to say that my dress fit 100% perfectly from the first moment and never once had any adjustments made to it…
I think the opposite is true for Maternity Clothes & I’m trying to figure out why.
Pants that I have bought from The GAP & Old Navy in my “maternity size” are WAY TOO BIG. My new brown Old Navy pants are FALLING OFF. Seriously. My GAP jeans are fabulous but they slide way down also. BUT the clothes I bought from Motherhood fit PERFECTLY and with room to grow. I understand that maybe the Old Navy & GAP stuff just have Room to Grow but I really don’t think that’s the case. What I’m really starting to think is that their REGULAR clothes sizing is bullshit. Nothing I have bought from either stores (same owner) fits the same way for the same size. It’s frustrating as all get out because you are faced with the possibility that your regular clothes size could actually be smaller than you think if they didn’t f*ck with the sizing and now that you are wearing Maternity clothes, of all things, they are TOO BIG for you.
AND what really annoys me is that all of GAP Maternity is online ONLY and Old Navy has only like 5% in-store selection and has about eleventy million % more available online so you CANNOT try them on first. So you trust. And they fail you. And leave you with your pants hanging off your pregnant ass at work.
THANKS!!
IT’S ALIVE!!
AND MOVING!!
I’m finally 100% convinced that this movement in My Belly is
A confession of sorts – I’ve been feeling the Bebe move for probably two weeks now.
When I first starting feeling the Bebe swimming around down there (and not the “down there” that Grandma means, I’ll get to that in month 10) I wasn’t so sure that what I was feeling wasn’t gas pains or heartburn flaring up into a VurpFest. So I didn’t say anything to anyone besides my mom & my husband.
To me it feels like what I like to call “A Frog” – those tiny little muscle spasms you generally get around your eye or thigh area – the ones you can actually watch “leap”. Heh, just had one while I was sitting here contemplating whether that was an apt enough description! I was waiting to make sure I was fully over The Sickness & that this was in fact my little Bebe Frog leaping around from lily pad (bladder) to lily pad (kidney).
Right now, the movement is still “too far inside” for Matias to feel anything. I have no other way to describe it to him other than “too far inside” and really, how far inside is this little Frogger swimming?? But every once in a while, I’ll let him know that the Bebe just moved around!!
So far, I’ve noticed he likes the bottom of his pond and the left side/West Coast – not a lot of movement up towards “the surface” or on the right side/East Coast.
Sleep positions are becoming interesting…
I sleep on both sides and my back – in that order. I HAVE TO fall asleep on my left side and then I will flip over to my right side (it’s not “tossing & turning” – it’s totally comfortable and cozy for me to do this) and then I will tend to end up on my back at some point with a cat sitting on my face or boobs.
These days the left side is more comfortable to sleep on, as most pregnancy literature will tell you but I still have the urge to flip to the right side. This causes severe SLOSHING Effect. Which leads to an uprising of fluids culminating into a Vurp in Lying Down Position – which equals VERY DANGEROUS LAKE SIDE EFFECTS. I’ve tried to curb my flipping but really, to no avail. I’ve definitely slowed it down though in order not to Slosh. But I can also BE Sloshed – if and when Matias jumps around during the night (cause he does) I get Wake Movement Sloshed. Makes me want to have one of those beds where I can jump up & down and still not knock over the glass of water!! At least my little West Coast Frog is learning to ride the waves early, no?
My FAVORITE sleep position though is the Crouching Monkey, Hidden Froggie.
And it goes a little something like this:
I have to be lying on my side and Monk will drape his body over My Belly and rest his body on me while hanging his head and paws over my side with his feet in “sitting” position. And then he purrs. And I can imagine that the Bebe is feeling Monkey purring on him and that makes me smile & a little weak in the knees.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Week 17-18!!
I’m wondering if my lack of blogging has anything to do with my feeling 100% better?!?!
Granted, I usually write on the weekends but we were away this weekend so I didn’t get a chance to do a weekly catch up and I’m not sure why I didn’t pound one out at work BUT I didn’t so here I am now – Week 18!!
WEEK 18?!?!?!?!
So now I’m 4 ½ months preggos (as my co-workers like to call me) and I’m 2 weeks shy of being ½ there and without jinxing anything (which I think is why I REALLY didn’t write much lately…) I think I’m over The Sickness!!
And there was much rejoicing!!
I suppose for about the last two weeks, I’ve been Sickness-free. The heartburn still persists but TUMS hasn’t let me down yet (knock on wood) so I can ‘manage’ that. It is nice to have my body back even though there’s someone growing inside of me – I feel much better about all the commotion since I pretty much know it’s not going to lead to me praying to the porcelain god.
As for my other bodily “tasks” – Matias thinks I need a whole other blog for that!! I’m simply thinking of making up a calendar and giving myself gold stars when appropriate. I’ve been forcing myself to drink [more] water and fruit – as far as I can tell it is helping. Surprisingly, the watermelon is rather sweet this time of year but the grapes have a little bit further to go before being perfect though. Just an FYI…
I got on the scale this morning (who actually gets on the scale and HOPES they have gained weight??!?! I’m not 15 any more and I’m not getting bribed with Birks or clothes…) and I think I’ve gained about 2 pounds. YAY for 2 POUNDS!!
I STILL think the Belly is HUGE. And people have been touching me. Now, we all know I don’t like to be touched. I knew this would happen at some point but I think this is a little early to be rubbing MY Belly. Sometimes my Ninja skills step in and I can block the offender and then I’ve also learned to just stand there with my hand on MY Belly in order to quickly whisk the offenders’ hand away. Co-workers are touching me, people. So not only do I have to get comfortable with looking fat I have to let other people who I may not even like (god, the horror) TOUCH ME IN A SEMI-PRIVATE AREA! Trust me, I’ll kick you and chalk it up to hormones & not feel bad at all.
Sitting in certain positions is already becoming uncomfortable – I tried to sit cross-legged on the train this weekend and that only last about 10 minutes. I couldn’t lean onto Matias and ½ way lie down on the train. Hey, maybe it’s the trains’ fault and not mine?!!?
I spent the last two weeks or so sleeping on Matias’ side of the bed so that I was closer to the bathroom. Last night I climbed back over to my side!! I’m sleeping with three pillows in an upright position which sometimes leaves my neck with some cramping but that’s because I sleep on my side so my neck isn’t fully supported in this position. Anyway…I think we are both happy to have our own side of the bed back.
I did manage to make MYSELF a little carsick last night though – how talented am I?? I’m definitely going to blame that one on traffic though and not my driving skills – too much stop and go for my liking. TUMS cleared that right up though! YAY TUMS!!
Granted, I usually write on the weekends but we were away this weekend so I didn’t get a chance to do a weekly catch up and I’m not sure why I didn’t pound one out at work BUT I didn’t so here I am now – Week 18!!
WEEK 18?!?!?!?!
So now I’m 4 ½ months preggos (as my co-workers like to call me) and I’m 2 weeks shy of being ½ there and without jinxing anything (which I think is why I REALLY didn’t write much lately…) I think I’m over The Sickness!!
And there was much rejoicing!!
I suppose for about the last two weeks, I’ve been Sickness-free. The heartburn still persists but TUMS hasn’t let me down yet (knock on wood) so I can ‘manage’ that. It is nice to have my body back even though there’s someone growing inside of me – I feel much better about all the commotion since I pretty much know it’s not going to lead to me praying to the porcelain god.
As for my other bodily “tasks” – Matias thinks I need a whole other blog for that!! I’m simply thinking of making up a calendar and giving myself gold stars when appropriate. I’ve been forcing myself to drink [more] water and fruit – as far as I can tell it is helping. Surprisingly, the watermelon is rather sweet this time of year but the grapes have a little bit further to go before being perfect though. Just an FYI…
I got on the scale this morning (who actually gets on the scale and HOPES they have gained weight??!?! I’m not 15 any more and I’m not getting bribed with Birks or clothes…) and I think I’ve gained about 2 pounds. YAY for 2 POUNDS!!
I STILL think the Belly is HUGE. And people have been touching me. Now, we all know I don’t like to be touched. I knew this would happen at some point but I think this is a little early to be rubbing MY Belly. Sometimes my Ninja skills step in and I can block the offender and then I’ve also learned to just stand there with my hand on MY Belly in order to quickly whisk the offenders’ hand away. Co-workers are touching me, people. So not only do I have to get comfortable with looking fat I have to let other people who I may not even like (god, the horror) TOUCH ME IN A SEMI-PRIVATE AREA! Trust me, I’ll kick you and chalk it up to hormones & not feel bad at all.
Sitting in certain positions is already becoming uncomfortable – I tried to sit cross-legged on the train this weekend and that only last about 10 minutes. I couldn’t lean onto Matias and ½ way lie down on the train. Hey, maybe it’s the trains’ fault and not mine?!!?
I spent the last two weeks or so sleeping on Matias’ side of the bed so that I was closer to the bathroom. Last night I climbed back over to my side!! I’m sleeping with three pillows in an upright position which sometimes leaves my neck with some cramping but that’s because I sleep on my side so my neck isn’t fully supported in this position. Anyway…I think we are both happy to have our own side of the bed back.
I did manage to make MYSELF a little carsick last night though – how talented am I?? I’m definitely going to blame that one on traffic though and not my driving skills – too much stop and go for my liking. TUMS cleared that right up though! YAY TUMS!!
Saturday, February 11, 2006
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Week 15-16!
The past week or so has been relatively comfortable body-function-wise, my mood swings still have not disappeared though. The dragon has come out a couple of times & I know my temper is flaring quicker and my patience is wearing thinner. But seriously, if you think you can control your PMS mood swings, you aint seen nothing like these puppies.
I mean, two Superbowl commercials made me cry goddamnit. The DOVE one & the baby Bud Light horsie one. IF those didnt make you cry, or think about it, then you're dead inside.
I've been sleeping much better & The Sickness has passed (please god, knock on wood) so I'm feeling MUCH better and that does help with the mood swings. It's easier to feel less bitchy when you arent holding down your breakfast, lunch & dinner. Notice I didnt say NOT bitchy, just less - that's an improvement I'm sure Matias is grateful for.
I went to the Doctor on Tuesday for my monthly check in - I'm 16 weeks, 4 months!!!, pregnant :)
I got to hear the bebe's heartbeat again!! And I cried again. I was told this is a "very strong heartbeat" - read into that what you will - I wasnt given the rate but there is some Old Wife's Tale that you can tell the sex by the rate of beats...
I got my blood work drawn for the AFB tests & they will contact me if there is anything awry. I've got that date, Feb. 21st, marked in the organizer already, folks.
I've lost 1/2 a pound. Now folks, I dont know how this is happening. Possibly the no drinking or smoking but I'm eating and drinking (2% milk, baby!!) more and better so I'm just not getting the no weight gain. The NP said not to worry that a lot of women make up for their lack of weight gain between weeks 20 & 24 - so come Week 25 and nothing has happened...then we can all start worrying, ok?
With that said...
The Dr. said, and I'm quoting here, "you have a much larger baby belly than I expected". I said "thank you".
Baby is happy & healthy :) YAY!!
I have my sonogram scheduled for March 14th!!!
Matias was a little jealous that he didnt get to hear the heartbeat again, but I honestly didnt know that I would get to hear it every time. My bad. Dont get me wrong, I still walked in and out of the office doing a "I got to hear the heartbeat" dance :) I'm not above that!! I think it might motivate him to come to every appointment - he works from home on Tuesdays & could totally swing it. Now, dont be mistaken, he has come to the first appt. and will come to the sonogram and others that he is needed at BUT we havent discussed him coming to EVERY appointment with me...that could get REALLY boring, dont you think? But, if he wants to come, he can come!!
I really dont fit in any of my clothes anymore. I should say I really dont fit COMFORTABLY in any of my clothes anymore. They still fit but it's a little difficult to be comfortable at work all day in them. We will be going Maternity Clothes Shopping this weekend - I'll just hit up Old Navy, Hecht's, Motherhood and Target in one swoop - they are all on the same road. And some underwear definitely fits better than others. I havent been dressing all that fabulously for work because the only pants that fit properly are my maternity jeans & those are fine but now my tops are fitting over the bump very well and exposing my "maternity" portion of my maternity jeans - which is terribly un-fabulous.
According to everyone, I should be able to start feeling kicks and movement starting in week 16 - this week. So far, nothing. But I'm ok with that because, morbidly, I got to hear the heartbeat this week. My mom described it as "someone clawing at you from the inside" which is EXACTLY how my period cramps usually feel so I'm waiting for this sign to appear to me...others claim it's like "butterflies" but I dont really get butterflies, I just normally puke when I'm nervous...and then there's the "popcorn popping" which I dont know what that FEELS like, I only know what that SOUNDS like. So my bets are on "clawing" with a side bet placed on "butterflies" with me thinking it's just The Sickness coming back. Again.
I mean, two Superbowl commercials made me cry goddamnit. The DOVE one & the baby Bud Light horsie one. IF those didnt make you cry, or think about it, then you're dead inside.
I've been sleeping much better & The Sickness has passed (please god, knock on wood) so I'm feeling MUCH better and that does help with the mood swings. It's easier to feel less bitchy when you arent holding down your breakfast, lunch & dinner. Notice I didnt say NOT bitchy, just less - that's an improvement I'm sure Matias is grateful for.
I went to the Doctor on Tuesday for my monthly check in - I'm 16 weeks, 4 months!!!, pregnant :)
I got to hear the bebe's heartbeat again!! And I cried again. I was told this is a "very strong heartbeat" - read into that what you will - I wasnt given the rate but there is some Old Wife's Tale that you can tell the sex by the rate of beats...
I got my blood work drawn for the AFB tests & they will contact me if there is anything awry. I've got that date, Feb. 21st, marked in the organizer already, folks.
I've lost 1/2 a pound. Now folks, I dont know how this is happening. Possibly the no drinking or smoking but I'm eating and drinking (2% milk, baby!!) more and better so I'm just not getting the no weight gain. The NP said not to worry that a lot of women make up for their lack of weight gain between weeks 20 & 24 - so come Week 25 and nothing has happened...then we can all start worrying, ok?
With that said...
The Dr. said, and I'm quoting here, "you have a much larger baby belly than I expected". I said "thank you".
Baby is happy & healthy :) YAY!!
I have my sonogram scheduled for March 14th!!!
Matias was a little jealous that he didnt get to hear the heartbeat again, but I honestly didnt know that I would get to hear it every time. My bad. Dont get me wrong, I still walked in and out of the office doing a "I got to hear the heartbeat" dance :) I'm not above that!! I think it might motivate him to come to every appointment - he works from home on Tuesdays & could totally swing it. Now, dont be mistaken, he has come to the first appt. and will come to the sonogram and others that he is needed at BUT we havent discussed him coming to EVERY appointment with me...that could get REALLY boring, dont you think? But, if he wants to come, he can come!!
I really dont fit in any of my clothes anymore. I should say I really dont fit COMFORTABLY in any of my clothes anymore. They still fit but it's a little difficult to be comfortable at work all day in them. We will be going Maternity Clothes Shopping this weekend - I'll just hit up Old Navy, Hecht's, Motherhood and Target in one swoop - they are all on the same road. And some underwear definitely fits better than others. I havent been dressing all that fabulously for work because the only pants that fit properly are my maternity jeans & those are fine but now my tops are fitting over the bump very well and exposing my "maternity" portion of my maternity jeans - which is terribly un-fabulous.
According to everyone, I should be able to start feeling kicks and movement starting in week 16 - this week. So far, nothing. But I'm ok with that because, morbidly, I got to hear the heartbeat this week. My mom described it as "someone clawing at you from the inside" which is EXACTLY how my period cramps usually feel so I'm waiting for this sign to appear to me...others claim it's like "butterflies" but I dont really get butterflies, I just normally puke when I'm nervous...and then there's the "popcorn popping" which I dont know what that FEELS like, I only know what that SOUNDS like. So my bets are on "clawing" with a side bet placed on "butterflies" with me thinking it's just The Sickness coming back. Again.
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Please. Before I Vurp.
I was reading my Ages & Stages newsletter from Americanbaby.com (can you guess why I signed up at this site?!!?) yesterday and the last section was titled "Your Partner" so I started reading it and nearly threw my monitor over this cube wall.
"Think of your partner as a coach, a valuable member of Team Baby. Don't forget to show your appreciation for all he does."
At this point, I'm thinking "EVERYTHING HE DOES?" How about I show my appreciation by not puking on his side of the bed, or making sure I brush my teeth before coming back to bed so I dont have "puke breathe"? HOW'S THAT???
I'm not in any mood to get all 1950s bullshit advice here, people. I really dont think I need to be appreciating my husband for "all he does" - hasnt he done enough?!?!
"Think of your partner as a coach, a valuable member of Team Baby. Don't forget to show your appreciation for all he does."
At this point, I'm thinking "EVERYTHING HE DOES?" How about I show my appreciation by not puking on his side of the bed, or making sure I brush my teeth before coming back to bed so I dont have "puke breathe"? HOW'S THAT???
I'm not in any mood to get all 1950s bullshit advice here, people. I really dont think I need to be appreciating my husband for "all he does" - hasnt he done enough?!?!
On Pregnancy
Wendy Wassterstein just recently past away & I was reading some of her articles on Motherhood that I found linked on someone else's webpage...and this quote made me cheer from the rooftops.
I reached for a magazine and came upon a detailed account of Cindy Crawford’s pregnancy: Cindy is “over the moon” about her baby. Cindy does yoga and is working out all the way through. Cindy never has swollen fingers and legs. Cindy never has to lie on her left side.
AHEM.
Wendy was going through high blood pressure and they would try to get it lower by having her lie on her left side...
I love the indignation that you can hear ringing through that quote though.
I dont think I would be so nice, in fact, I know I wouldnt. All I want to say is "Cindy needs to piss off".
I reached for a magazine and came upon a detailed account of Cindy Crawford’s pregnancy: Cindy is “over the moon” about her baby. Cindy does yoga and is working out all the way through. Cindy never has swollen fingers and legs. Cindy never has to lie on her left side.
AHEM.
Wendy was going through high blood pressure and they would try to get it lower by having her lie on her left side...
I love the indignation that you can hear ringing through that quote though.
I dont think I would be so nice, in fact, I know I wouldnt. All I want to say is "Cindy needs to piss off".
ACK! ACK! ACK!
Day # 2 of Heartburn continues.
Last night it hurt so bad, I dont know how many times I nearly puked. Although I did vurp & 1/2 way numerous times nothing ever came all the way up. TMI? TFB.
The tic tacs are no longer working & I just remembered I got some leftover Pregnancy TUMS from a co-worker and just rapidly chewed it.
I just had a large milk and that seemed to have worked but the pain is back again...
I REALLY want Mexican for dinner. (I suppose that's neither here nor there but just thought I would tell you!)
Last night it hurt so bad, I dont know how many times I nearly puked. Although I did vurp & 1/2 way numerous times nothing ever came all the way up. TMI? TFB.
The tic tacs are no longer working & I just remembered I got some leftover Pregnancy TUMS from a co-worker and just rapidly chewed it.
I just had a large milk and that seemed to have worked but the pain is back again...
I REALLY want Mexican for dinner. (I suppose that's neither here nor there but just thought I would tell you!)
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Damnit Jim!
I bought these delicious looking chocolate chip muffins at the grocery run the other night...
I ate one last night while waiting for Matias to come home from soccer with dinner and I didnt feel FANTASTIC after eating it but chalked it up to needing something more "food-ish" in my system.
Brought one to work today for my mid-morning snack and GODDAMNIT IF IT HASNT GIVEN ME HEARTBURN. I didnt even get to finish it before I got attacked.
A fricking chocolate chip muffin?!!? Guess I'll just have to cut the muffins out of the equation ;)
I ate one last night while waiting for Matias to come home from soccer with dinner and I didnt feel FANTASTIC after eating it but chalked it up to needing something more "food-ish" in my system.
Brought one to work today for my mid-morning snack and GODDAMNIT IF IT HASNT GIVEN ME HEARTBURN. I didnt even get to finish it before I got attacked.
A fricking chocolate chip muffin?!!? Guess I'll just have to cut the muffins out of the equation ;)
A Girl Can Dream, Cant She?
Last night I had quite the detailed dream about labor and delivery of Bebe Nino. Even Mystic birthed a little one – so detailed, in fact, that her kitten’s face had the same markings but on the opposite sides!! And she was walking around all strutting her stuff just like her Momma. She was such a proud momma too, tail all up full mast with her little one strolling behind her, tail all up full mast too!!
Then it was my turn. And this is totally from the dream not from what I remember OF the dream.
I went into labor – water broke – the whole nine yards, right? For some reason, I had to be lifted into the hospital bed (I wonder if I’m also having anxiety about being “too large”??) and then that’s all I remember until I “woke up” [still in the dream here] and WALKED over to Matias & my mom (don’t know where the baby was…) and asked everyone what was going on.
It appears that I didn’t remember giving birth AT ALL.
They brought the baby GIRL to me and placed her on my chest to start feeding and she was just beautiful. The perfect mix of Matias & I – flawless skin with some olive overtones, little tufts of dark brown hair and the sweetest, friendliest shaped eyes I have ever seen. She had her eyes closed the entire time she nursed and was holding onto my finger. *Sigh* She was wrapped in a pink blanket and that’s how I found out we had a little girl – no one wanted to tell me just outright since I hadn’t remembered delivering her to begin with.
So back to the nursery she went & I finally got to talk with the doctor. I really just couldn’t get over that I blacked out and was wondering how many drugs I had been given. Turns out, I did the whole thing NATURALLY and everything went quite smoothly until right after when I just passed the hell out. And mentally blocked the entire experience out.
So I have no memory, whatsoever, about delivering our baby. The pain was SO severe that I blocked it out right away since that was the only way I was going to be able to get through it without medication. YAY!! I DID IT WITHOUT DRUGS!!
Then it turned not really pleasant – I was walking down to the nursery to see our little girl again and Matias was there in the hall too but not WITH me. I tried to talk to him but he didn’t really want anything to do with me so I asked if it was because I blocked out the pain and didn’t remember anything and he just basically told me that I wasn’t “needed anymore” that I had “fulfilled” my “duty” and that was that!!
That’s when I woke up & turned over to him and told him I had a “weird” dream – it wasn’t really a nightmare cause, damn, who wouldn’t want to go through natural childbirth and then block it out – but then the whole “I’m done with you, thanks for being the hen for my chick” thing kinda put a damper on the whole “YAY!” portion of the dream. I hope I don’t really continue to have these Delivery Dreams for the next 6 months though…we ARE going to attempt Natural Delivery and the “block out system” seems just fine to me but I don’t think I need to continue to dream about it on a regular basis!! And we can axe the whole ‘not needed’ portion of the show too…
But let me tell you Mystic & me had some pretty damn cute babies!!
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