Yog-aaaaahhhhhh

I started YOGA on Saturday & was a little nervous before going in as I’ve never done yoga before & didn’t really know what to expect of myself (which is usually pretty high). I’m not the most stretchy person alive and don’t have the greatest of balance (Hi! I fall off of bikes still!).

I can report that I only almost fell over once and did so gracefully and then tried the position (Half Moon) again and did it just fine. The breathing techniques were really good – breathing through your belly, your ribs in the front and back & you can really feel the difference and the room it gives the bebe. I can totally see how these positions are going to come in handy for a natural delivery also & that is the most exciting thing for me! Matias would like me to be able to channel my “feelings” a little better and cut out some stress that I let bubble up so as not to effect the bebe – I think I’m doing pretty well with that considering…but I do know I can also use some help with that and the circular breathing definitely does help!

Bebe LOVED it too! When we were doing our relaxation breathing for 6 minutes to warm down he was moving EVERYWHERE and just cruising around – such a good feeling – I just laid there with my eyes closed with the sun on my face and smiled. I’m sure I looked like a doof but knowing that the bebe was zooming around in there happy as can be, it made me feel really good about what I was doing for the bebe and for me. And, I think that’s the point of it all.

There are a lot of stretches that rotate your hips and pelvis and you can tell that it’s supposed to help get you into delivery mode which I think also helps prepare your mind for what is going to happen if you have never experienced it before. Lots of squats that actually didn’t hurt but felt good to be opening those areas up, cause lord knows those areas are gonna be opened up in a few months’ time. I felt confidant doing all the poses too! And it’s nice to be a room with other pregnant women who are all in the same boat as you. I could probably blame my center of gravity being off for nearly falling off the wall while standing on one leg with my other leg basically over my head BUT I think it’s just the weak left ankle that was somewhat getting in my way. I was fine balancing on my right ankle though. THANKFULLY my ankles DID NOT hurt!! That’s a main concern for me at this point since my hands and ankles are swollen already & I know they can only get bigger – my doctor has assured me that the swelling will not effect my arthritis but what can I say, I suppose I wont believe it till I see it & by me doing these yoga positions I was worried I would over-extend my ankles and cause myself some pain. YAY for that not happening!

It would be nice to picture myself just squatting this bebe out BUT I’m pretty sure that’s not on the agenda! On a somewhat related note – there is a CD player in the delivery room & a DVD player in the recovery room in the hospital – I asked if there was a DVD player in the delivery room and then Matias turned to me and said “you’d NEVER be able to watch that DVD again if you did that” & of course, he’s probably right but wouldn’t GORGE or RED ROCKS be perfect? I know I can still listen to them but having those boys to “focus” on would be nice too. GRIN.

Now that I’ve switched gears here a little bit, I should probably get thinking about what music exactly we will take in with us. This probably will take 3 months to decide. Do we just bring his laptop with the portable hard drive in and put it on random? Do we make a track listing? Do I obsess too much over weird things? Do you realize that was rhetorical? Heh.

In other news! Sometime last week, I started SEEING the bebe squirming around in my belly!! SO SURREAL!! Monkey was lying down with me at the time and he kind of spied the movement but didn’t have the patience to keep staring to see if it happened again – I’m sure that when he does really notice it though a little Monka paw will be extended to try and “catch” the movement. And for some reason, I just think that’s the cutest damn thing EVER. It doesn’t happen all the time and for very long though so it’s been tough to get Matias to see him in action – I’m sure it will happen soon enough though! Rach says she can feel the head or foot but not me…I can feel more of what he is doing that what part of him is doing it…and honestly I don’t know if I’m quite ready yet for the whole “that’s a damn foot in my ribs” experience!

And the whole “no bathing suit anytime soon for me” statement? Yeah, I packed my tankini (and some clothes to wear over top) for the hot tub in Tahoe. I just think it’s going to be scary. I don’t have any stretch marks YET so it wont be that hideous. Maybe.

It’s getting more and more difficult to sit with my legs closed or without wanting to put my belly in between my legs and just lean forward, and I know it’s only going to get more desirable to do just that. For some reason, I haven’t been enjoying the Cuddle Pillow as much as usual…I normally just toss it out of bed now in the middle of the night. Don’t know what’s up with that though…

And with that, I’m going to finish packing for our Baby Moon since Matias got up and I can be loud in the bedroom! I might be able to post from my brother’s house but I don’t know about Tahoe.

But HAPPY 7 MONTHS PREGNANT DAY!!

*almost* 7 Months!! This was taken Friday before work in a shirt that I bought last year - I joked that I had bought a Maternity shirt by accident cause it was so big in th belly! As you can see it still fits quite nicely :) As does Bebe! 

Post Delivery/Recovery Room with Bebe's bed 

Warm Blankets for Mom after delivery - they say I will just love it but I'm not sure since it will be July and all... 

Labor & Delivery Room 

Sleep to Dream Her

I had another dream about having a baby girl last week. Also included another LOVELY episode of passing out during the delivery and not remembering one single thing from it all. So much so that I had to ASK what we had!! I would remember everything up to the point of starting to push the head out and then NOTHING.

I woke up and saw that my mom was carrying a pink blankie around but wasn’t sure if it was for me and the bebe or what…so I had to ask and when she responded with “you don’t know, do you?” I realized once again that I had completely blocked it out. I had to go to the nursery to meet our little girl – thankfully Matias hadn’t changed the name on me!

I’m starting to really dig this ‘don’t remember a damn thing’ whole approach to delivery without meds! Wouldn’t that just be the best of both worlds??!!? No drugs but also no pain? You know your body/brain shuts down and blocks things that are too hurtful for you to go through so why cant this be a true concept? Wouldn’t that be grand? Your body is still reacting but your brain has given you a pass!!

I suppose the larger aspect of this is that I’m beginning to be afraid of the pain. Duh, people. But I like the way it’s manifesting itself in my dreams! I haven’t had one dream that is painful – everything has been painless!! I like those odds – what’s it called – [jesus, hello Mommy Stupids] Projecting!!

But it was also the second dream I had about having a girl. I’ve heard that whatever you dream it is, usually is wrong, so…your guess is as good as mine, I suppose. Strange thing is that I’ve “felt” like we are having a boy, and supposedly, the Mommy Instinct is correct a high percentage of the time and couple that with the dreams of girls (which are supposed to be wrong) then I think if you’re a betting person, I would go with Boy. Logical, right?! HA.

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Baby Talk

Matias is continuing with his conversations with bebe – and last night we did a little “test”.

He was just talking to him, through my belly button-area, and there was no response but he had just been awake a minute earlier so I told Matias to “tap to him” and see what happens. He responded RIGHT AWAY in the exact spot Matias tapped!!

He was also singing songs to him and when he responded he would make a specific noise to let the bebe know he had “heard” him. It was too cute.

After a while though the pressure of Matias lying on me and my organs gets a little much & I have to ask him to say goodbye so I can get some relief. I always feel bad doing that but it a little uncomfortable. So he says good night and kisses my belly.

Matias asked me the other night how it feels to be pregnant with a growing belly – sometimes my belly ‘hurts’ like the skin is stretching more and just aches around my ribs so he rubs my belly cream on me and that helps soothe it. When I responded that it didn’t really feel any different – to actually have the belly – he was surprised but not as much as I was! Sure, it’s different but it doesn’t feel “alien” & that’s something I wasn’t expecting. When I feel the bebe wake up I always say hello or good morning and then I talk to him throughout the day (but quietly so as not to seem too crazy) – I don’t feel like he is a separate entity in my body, taking over and changing Me – I feel like he’s a part of me/us that just happens to be inside of me. If anyone has ever had a conversation with me about pregnant women you know I’m not that thrilled about it all & I’m not saying I’m one of those people who suddenly is all like “oh wait until it happens to you…”, I didn’t expect this feeling & feel quite “blessed” (for lack of a better non-catholic word) to be sharing this time and giving our bebe a Home. I still really don’t think pregnant bellies are beautiful but I don’t feel like I’m looking at a stranger when I catch a glimpse of myself either. And perhaps this feeling will diminish when I get to a larger stage…but at the moment it hasn’t & I don’t mind at all. I also think that since Spring has Sprung I’m feeling more “loose” – mostly in my clothing! No big jacket to lug around and encapsulate my growing belly, no heavy shoes & socks – just wearing ONE layer of clothes is such a nice feeling. Don’t think you’ll be getting me into a bathing suit anytime soon though!! And I am truly NOT looking forward to the day when my belly button Pops. I hate belly buttons, period. And this Popping thing – I still think that’s gross. I had to check last night though as my draw string on my pants (thanks for the black yoga pants, mom!) was in a conspicuous position – thankfully – not the Button!! I do feel comfort in the bebe’s movements too – I LIKE feeling him move and tumble around in there. And I also, GASP, RUB MY BELLY. Not in public, mind you, unless some asshat pushes me on the metro than I just comfort him to let him know we are ok. Not to sound like an idiot but it’s like petting your cat when they sit in your lap – they are there, they want love, so give it them! Don’t worry, I’m not comparing my bebe to our cats – although…if we could have a bebe as sweet and loving as Monkey & as fierce and strong willed as Mystic, I don’t think you’d have any complaints from the Ninos. Maybe just more controllable fur, I mean hair.

I looked up at our sonogram picture last night and I turned to Matias and said “that’s OUR bebe in that frame there – not someone else’s, isn’t it amazing?” and he just squished my face and called me a weirdo.

Which was a lot nicer than being called Cork – which sadly he called me for most of the night since I got an extreme case of Mommy Stupids.

In other belly news – I am running into things Belly First now. It’s almost as if I don’t know it’s there. Cube walls at work get rammed if I turn around too quickly, drawers get shut by it when I’m cleaning the kitchen, and corners get hit when I’m doing the laundry. And yes, my center of gravity is off. If I stand up too quickly I can tilt a little before righting myself – which is comical to my co-workers cause they just love watching me so animatedly go through this. One would think one would realize that this belly is going to go first but you just kind of forget that it’s there. Getting off the couch can be difficult, depending on how long I’ve been there & Matias hoisted me up with a nice shove of his legs last night and nearly sent me over the ottoman cause the whole center of gravity thing kicked in too.

Let me explain a little about the Mommy Stupids – they aren’t of the ‘forgetting’ simple things variety. I seem to experiencing the type that regress my base of knowledge to that of a teenager. Things we know usually, I have to question and sadly sometimes I do ask out loud and regret it instantly because of the looks I receive from Matias over it! It’s like I’ve forgotten that the Sun is this orb that heats us…strange. High learning intense TV shows (like NOVA) are a little much for me to handle at the moment so I just nap through them praying osmosis kicks in. Thankfully, Matias is grateful that I’m sending all my brain power to our child. But it would be nice if I could have some left over for myself.

See, I was going to write about something else but Matias just asked me to shut a window and I took Mystic to him to warm him up in bed and I’ve completely forgotten. It could have been really important too. But I’m sure it wasn’t!

For example, I cannot remember if I wrote about my dream last weekend – I was waiting to write about it until I had told Matias & my mom about it but now I have to go back and see if I actually did mention it already. Alrighty, I haven’t written about it – so I’ll make that a separate post now!

Week 26 Update

We had our Week 26 doctor appointment on Tuesday & I also had the lovely Diabetes Screening Test – gotta love the ORANGE flavored something or other you have to drink in less than 5 minutes.

Everyone is VERY good & healthy!! Heartbeat was found RIGHT AWAY!! YAY!! I’ve gained 5 lbs. which puts me at 12 lbs. total for 6 ½ months, I hoping I don’t gain more than 20 but at the MOST 25. I’m afraid of that 30 lb. mark. Blood pressure is still very good 120/74 (I think, if that sounds right), they claim that my swollen ankles will NOT affect my arthritic ankles and he did measure my bump, but I forgot to ask.

I also talked to him about Lamaze techniques and wanting to go Au Natural (no meds) and he sees nothing wrong with that and since my pregnancy has been so “great” (YAY!!!) that he foresees no problems with that route. He was also pleased that I will taking the prenatal yoga and also suggested water aerobics BUT I don’t think I have time in my schedule to add something else at this point…considering we are moving, going on a 9 day vacation AND working FT…I don’t think I should add anything more!

April, a co-worker, exclaimed this morning “did you grow over night? You look huge!!” so maybe I’ll take a 6 ½ month belly picture this weekend??!?! LOL.

I do think I’m going through a growth spurt – I’ve been waking up hungry which is not normal for me & I woke up last night at 2am (actually the husband woke me up eating CARROTS IN BED) hungry so I made a peanut butter (organic!) sammich and chugged some milk. Which promptly woke the bebe up and he proceeded to do flips and kicks for about an hour – at that point I spooned my belly up against Matias & let him feel the movements – he started giggling right away.

I bought some apples this week and they are SO yummy BUT they make me burp. Always have – I remember I would eat one before softball practice and then do our warm-up run and I’d have the HUGEST burps out there – shocker, I know, eh? So now I’m sitting at my desk après pomme and trying not to burp. FUN. Not as much fun though as trying not to fart when you cough. Kidding, I’m kidding. Or AM I? Bebe really likes the apples though.

I think the Real Cravings are setting in though – the other day I REALLY wanted two scrambled eggs. And then later I got the craving for those Cadbury Finger cookies (dark or milk chocolate, I don’t care!) – sadly I haven’t satisfied that craving yet. Usually, I’ve had hunkerings for things we actually have in the house but this week, I’ve found myself REALLY NEEDING these things. I’ve given Matias strict orders that I MUST be taken for Mexican food this weekend. Taco Bell doesn’t count.

Grandma sent us the CUTEST sonogram picture frame EVER! It says “the first time ever I saw your face” – go on and try not to tear up, I dare you. So I put the “profile” picture from below in it and put it on our TV. GRIN!! So now I can see his (OR her) face whenever I’m watching my marathon L&O episodes!

This weekend I am definitely hitting up the Spring/Summer Maternity Fashions…I desperately need some clothes. And underwear. Why the BEEP has Target pulled their maternity underwear? I ADORE it and there’s no more. Old Navy’s is “so-so” AND one of them ALREADY has a hole in them (I have underwear older than our cat that doesn’t have holes in it) so I’m done with them…Motherhood has a good selection and not horrible prices so I’m going to check that out this weekend also. Matias tried to talk me down off the ledge over the underwear and wanted me to just order if from Target on line – they don’t even have it AT ALL anymore. Sadness and bitterness.
I believe the date has been set for my Baby Shower – May 13th!! YAY!! EXCITING!! I think I’ll take the train down for that and leave Matias at home with the Our First Babies – I’ll be leaving the goodies there anyway since we will be moving the following weekend & I really don’t need to bring more stuff into the house to move to another place, you know? I should probably book that now, before I forget!!

Funny.

We were with Pace & Chris last night for the GMU game & Pace made a comment about the babies first words out of the womb would be "dancing nancies...", I retorted with "I'm thinking it will be more along the lines of 'Hey La'". Cause seriously, this bebe LOVES that song. Instant reaction every time it's played.

Not that I have a problem with that. At all.

More Rambling from Mamacita

Thursday I had my First Stranger ask me when I was due! Thankfully, I mustn’t look fat but pregnant OR she just had really large balls.

Matias is still talking to the bebe through my belly button. Now, the bebe answers him. In Morse code, of course. He talks and taps and the bebe kicks him back – to which Matias responds with “ow!” and the cycle continues. He was talking to him during a quiet time so I told him to get me a glass of milk and he’d wake right up – sure enough – this bebe was up not 30 seconds after chugging a glass of milk. And the games ensued. We either have a kick boxer, submariner, or soccer player. I’m leaning towards all three because you know this kid has mad skillz, yo.

Honestly, these hits and kicks do NOT come in as singles – they are volleys. Picture Rocky at the punching bag and please include the sound effects because I do when I describe it to people. I think that instead of using ASL (which I only know one “universal” sign) we should just get an old school Morse code machine and just make him OR HER (or really?) a geek from the get-go.

We went to Baby Depot and Toys R Us yesterday to actually touch and feel things instead of just picking crap off the web. We excel at picking crap off the web. Hell, how do you think I found my husband? Kidding, I kid. OR do I? At least it confirmed that yes; the Daddy did like everything I picked! HA! We changed a few things around – no swing but get that adorable Papasan for $50 cheaper. Yes, we have our Travel Gear confirmed – and Daddy pushed the stroller around and approved of the second cup holder to be used as an ashtray. Kidding, people, I’m kidding. Sadly, that usually what we use our Second Cup Holders for on our camping chairs though. Ah, times are a’ changing. He has finally calmed down about the breast pump issue (thank god, eh, Nikki??) and “approved” of the one I picked. I say “finger quotes” because I was getting it “approval” or not. We changed our mind on the playmate based on us not liking the colors and patterns of the one I originally chose. Fun things like this – just remember your wedding registries and think “buying shit for something you have never done before” and it’s TONS OF FUN! Actually, it was a lot of fun, just strange. All going to Toys R Us proved was that they mark their shit up a LOT. Some items were $20, 30, and 40 MORE than a non-sale price at Baby Depot. I’m seriously considering switching our Amazon Baby Registry to a Target registry – this is HUGE because Target registries SUCK. BUT they have better pricing and selection than Toys R Us (my god, how many times can I scare myself by writing that store name?? ME? TOYS R US??? Hold me.) And plus, I’m really pissed at Amazon and will tell anyone who listens.

So you’re listening! Amazon has a 100% affiliation with Babies R Us – that’s the ONLY way you can buy online for that store & when you register at Amazon you register at Babies R Us. BUT unlike other Wish Lists at Amazon NOT ALL PRODUCTS OFFERED ON AMAZON ARE AVAILABLE TO BE ADDED TO YOUR BABY REGISTRY. Do NOT ask why, Amazon had no good answer for me (yes, I emailed them) they simply told me to add those items not available to add to the BABY REGISTRY to a separate WISH LIST. So, I would have to create ANOTHER LIST for nice, generous, loving people to buy MY BABY a gift. I think not, bitches. My idea of using Amazon was so that we could cull all of the items we wanted from non-Super Store stores and have them in one place. All this started with the AMAZING baby sling that NO ONE offers in their Super Store stores. How is this to their disadvantage? Everyone would be making more money & Babies R Us wouldn’t be losing any since they don’t offer that item to begin with!! MORE MONEY, MORE PEOPLE HAPPY – EASY, PEASY PEOPLE!! I hate always having to do things the RIGHT way for people, it’s very taxing. HA! Kidding, I kid. OR do I?

I am also at the point where Every Time I Stand Up, I Must Pee. Running errands yesterday was FUN!!

I’ve been going to sleep around 10-10:30 every night…it’s not too bad on school nights but it’s killing me on the weekends since I DO like to spend time with my bebe daddy but he’s been adorable about it – even tucking me in (ok he does that every night) and making sure I have my cuddle pillow properly in use. Bad side-effect though – I’m up at 7:30 and I mean UP. So this morning it was 6:30 (thanks DLST!) so thankfully Da Monk came back to bed and we had some cuddle time before I got up after he stepped on my bladder.

One more thing – this picking a Glider business – how on EARTH do the prices range so much on the same model at ALL different stores?? And HOW does Baby Depot not even have the one we liked available on line? We REALLY hate going around the stores with the gun thingy since they usually malfunction while in use BASICALLY forcing us to use the gun thingy since it’s not on line! DRATS.