Friday, December 01, 2006

I feel like a pendulum!

We had decided NOT to feed Liam his cereal but when he didn’t sleep through the night again & it was taking Matias about 2 hours to fall back asleep after Liam woke up so Daddy decided that we needed to try the cereal to see if it made a difference in his sleep patterns.

The first night he slept normally – waking twice – and was a happy little camper all day long yesterday – even sleeping BOTH WAYS in the car when I drove into work. He did have a very bad nightmare that night around 1am so I’m not sure if he would have woken up for a feeding if he hadn’t had this dream. But he didn’t go down for his 10am nap which worried me cause we were getting in the CarCar to go ByeBye later in the morning – so I was concerned that his schedule was going to get more out of whack. Thankfully with his naps in the car (about 30 minutes each) he was ok nap wise.

We decided to use the ready made formula we got from the hospital to mix his cereal with last night instead of me pumping (Hate! Pumping!) for that tiny of an amount & he LOVED it! He was so happy in his highchair & had two servings of cereal and I probably could have given him a third if I wasn’t worried about him horking up that last serving. He smiled and kicked and grabbed at the spoon and talked the entire time I was feeding him! Then he was out before the first Beatles song was over (Love Me Do)!

AND HE SLEPT UNTIL 6:15AM!!!

He went back to sleep after a feeding until 8:17 and we’ve been up since then. It took him a while to go down for his 10am nap, in fact he woke up after about 5 minutes and started playing so I took him upstairs and rocked him to sleep and he’s still asleep now.

Liam’s doing REALLY well with his cereal & I couldn’t be happier! I started feeling a little ‘strange’ last night after I fed him though. I had this feeling come over me that he didn’t Need me anymore & that he was growing up so quickly and soon we would be feeding him “real” solids and giving him the keys to the car. And I felt a TINY bit resentful towards the cereal for giving him something I couldn’t. He finally slept a great nights sleep because he wasn’t hungry and he was hungry because the Pimp Juice wasn’t cutting it for him 100% anymore & that makes me sad. Here I was somewhat wanting a break from nursing and now that I have it, to an extent, I’m upset that he has another source of food! Isnt that what I wanted?!? I guess I’m just not ready for him to be such a Big Boy. And for him to enjoy it so damn much. HA. I swear I can see in his eyes now when I nurse him that he’s wanting that cereal! Lord, I’m just crazy.

Let me tell you this left boob of mine was FULL this morning! Whoa doggie – you try sleeping on your stomach with one Rocky Mountain and one Alamaden Valley Foothill.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I TOTALLY understand how you feel. I was the SAME way w/Joey when he wanted the cereal and not me.

jennifer said...

The ONLY good thing about it right now is that since I have Open Houses the next two weekends and Poppa has to babysit I have plenty to pump for him!